looking for a job

No ones hiring me I'm on a disability check I take meds and I'm not making it here. I don't know how long this is going to last. I have so much time left being 33 years old but something can happen and I may die early. I have schizophrenia and have been injected many times with medication that I didn't want. I've been locked in psych wards many times and lived at a rehab for 6 years. I never had a normal life and theres many more like me mentally ill being discriminated against being gas lighted being called crazy psychotic etc.. I'm left with no future and I'm giving up. I'm left to do nothing and time is just passing by as my future is being taken away from me. I don't know who is responsible for this but I just can't make money. I need money for my future . School is too hard for me at this point because I have diminished with age or the system became more strict making me unable to continue my education. I've tried to continuously my education but was just inundated with nonsense and wasting my time. I have no relationship and live with my father. He's retired and just plays with his time. I wanted to have a relationship and a job since I've been young . I'm a smoker and it makes me feel sick but I do bring myself to exercise recently. Never had cancer but can happen with smoking to a long time. I use weed sometimes because it makes me feel better but sometimes not. I drink alcohol sometimes too. I sleep all night and try to stay awake all day. I watch the news a lot but don't know how I feel about it. I think I do believe in taxing the rich extra. I can't I'm imagine the suffering of those incarcerated sick and mentally ill on the streets outside suffering .