Paul's Blog

No ones hiring me I'm on a disability check I take meds and I'm not making it here. I don't know how long this is going to last. I have so much time left being 33 years old but something can happen and I may die early. I have schizophrenia and have been injected many times with medication that I didn't want. I've been locked in psych wards many times and lived at a rehab for 6 years. I never had a normal life and theres many more like me mentally ill being discriminated against being gas lighted being called crazy psychotic etc.. I'm left with no future and I'm giving up. I'm left to do nothing and time is just passing by as my future is being taken away from me. I don't know who is responsible for this but I just can't make money. I need money for my future . School is too hard for me at this point because I have diminished with age or the system became more strict making me unable to continue my education. I've tried to continuously my educ...

Getting a job will increase my income but it still may not be enough to have kids. Because I am not smart enough to get a degree I may end up not making enough to have kids but I would have come closer. I may not be smart enough to make enough money to have kids so I may have to work more physically 

Deep love is what I feel toward people. But love is just an emotion and energy that comes and goes.i feel love toward others when I think about there well being. Death pain and suffering is common on earth . I'm at the age where I should start having kids but don't have a job. I need a job.